verb. (ree’set): “Adjust again after an initial failure”

How wonderful it would be to erase all unwanted memories and habits. How refreshing it would feel to have a blank slate with the opportunity to rewrite the parts of history that makes us cringe after every recall. “Adjust again after an initial failure.” Machines and software, have it easy, don’t they? Not having any consciousness to live or deal with the unwanted remnants of the past. Peacefully reset and then go back to the starting point like nothing ever happened. Maybe in the not so distant future, when man and machine unite, we just might able to benefit from the simplicity of a reset button.

Hopefully, I did not lose you at an apocalyptic future where the possibilities of bionic humans having the luxury of escaping their troubles is a reality. In a rare future like this, we most certainly would have lost our humanity. Undeniably, what makes us humans includes the imperfection of making errors and managing the consequences that complement them. We learn from the past to make better decision in the future. We evolve.

Well, despite my sanity, I still fancy these ridiculous wishes at times. I wish I dedicated more time to learning how to study properly. I wish I did not rely on my tendency to absorb information cursorily and forget as quickly as smoke dissipates on a windy day. I wish I did not get entrenched in a heavy routine of entertainment consumption but rather traded habitual gaming and binge-watching TV shows for more productive endeavors like writing, programming, or painting (my latest hobby). I wish I did not always acquiesce to feelings of disappointment every time I failed a job interview or a big exam. I wish I could reset my emotions and chutzpah, readjust and start running again like I never stopped. Failures. Wishes. Regrets. How sad. I’m convinced I have had have the wrong state of mind since I graduated from college.

My current mantra is “every day is a new beginning.” For me, each new day is a fresh start to be more than what I was in the previous day. Repeated failure is pretty close in summing up my motivation for sticking with this mantra—possibly my longest standing personal statement. Born from repeated failures and shortfalls, the mantra materialized from a place of desperation; a place of continuous learning about everything that matters to me, including myself. This mindset has kept me going in the right direction for the past few years and it is the one thing I do not want to reset.

After all, not all days are the same. Every day is new.

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